You are viewing [info]ifyoursorry's journal

oh please don't
 
[Most Recent Entries] [Calendar View] [Friends]

Below are the 20 most recent journal entries recorded in dead and eternal snow's LiveJournal:

    [ << Previous 20 ]
    Thursday, March 3rd, 2011
    12:15 am
    25
    So I haven't wrote in this thing forever but I am about to turn 25 and it is super depressing because there is just so much I have not done that I want to do. I mean I'm a quarter of a century old and this is all I've done. Really. I need to save some money and just get out there. I have a lot of opportunities but I feel like I never take them so I think I should start. I think I should become someone more adventurous and take more chances. And I'm hoping since I'm documenting this I'll stick to it.
    Wednesday, October 4th, 2006
    9:16 am
    thedoorliesopen
    Saturday, September 30th, 2006
    12:23 am
    i realized that friends that treat you like shit
    are like clothes that don't fit you right
    or don't look good with your style

    when you go to throw old clothes like that out
    you hesitate
    becuase my god
    what if you need them someday?

    chances are you dont need them
    if they don't fit your style they will never fit your style
    and if they dont fit anymore they will never fit again

    just like friends

    assholes.

    (and i'm glad that you made us the bad guy. and im glad that everything you say isnt real. because you havent meant a single word. and my question is honestly why dont you come around when your with him? if its not that then what is it? cause you sure did stop by a lot when things werent working out.)

    Current Mood: pissed off
    Wednesday, September 27th, 2006
    6:24 am
    can you tell me why you have been so sad?
    shut my mouth and strike the demons
    that cursed you and your reasons
    out of hand and out of season
    out of like and out of feeling
    so bad
    no more promise no more sorrow
    no longer will i follow
    can anybody hear me
    i just want to be me
    when i can i will
    try to understand
    wrapped my hurt in you
    and took my shelter in that pain
    the opiate of blame
    nothing left to say
    and all i've left to do
    is run away
    from you
    so now im all by myself
    as ive always felt
    i'll betray my tears
    to anyone caught in our ruse of fools
    so let the sadness come again
    on that you can depend
    until the bitter end
    be ashamed
    of the mess you've made
    my eyes never forget, you see
    and what i've recovered of me
    i put into a box underneath my bed
    And now it's far to late to ever leave this cold

    Current Mood: productive
    Thursday, September 21st, 2006
    9:59 am
    yea atmosphere
    Watcha gonna do? Slam Doors? Break a glass?
    Maybe pass out on the kitchen floor with your naked ass?
    She still makes time to hate me
    but basically I'm overbooked no emotional vacancy
    Complacency seems so simple
    Like fuck it let me be the one you fight and call mister right
    It's an addiction bound to stick around
    cause a junky won't bounce 'till he hits the ground (get down)
    And these drugs ain't as good as we wish they were (get up)
    and this buzz doesn't keep us from missin' her (get over)
    And that love that built all of this emphasis
    spilled enough guilt to kill Electra and Oedipus (get out)
    It's easier to leave it there
    Each time I see your tears makes me need a beer to relieve the fear
    I wanna keep a clear sky and fly away like a meteor
    outta here maybe next year I'll reappear

    Sometimes you make me feel like such a prick
    That even I'm convinced that I'm the one thats sick
    You can fuss and bitch, you can cut your wrist
    or you can choke on that blood from the tounge you've bit
    And when you acted up, best believe I blessed you back
    I've got a fucking fan base that can attest to that
    I'm returning this bleeding hearts club membership card
    cause I want no motherfuckin' part of it
    We're just two dogs on all fours
    It's a tug of war for who loves you more
    Blame it on tours or locked bathroom doors
    or maybe it's 'cause my voice was louder than yours (what? You jealous?)
    And I'll be damned if I do this for forever
    Everybody lookin' at me like I don't know better
    Instead I gotta run if I'm ever gonna forget her
    cause I've always been a go-getter (so whatever)

    And now I got a head full of better off dead
    I followed down them steps, and slept in the wrong bed
    If I had a breath of self-respect left
    I'd set fire to the boxspring to help it catch wreck
    Let these ashes represent the mattress
    Director left the set but nobody told the actress
    So she's still actin' as if we scheduled a practice
    and my soundtrack is compromisin' her theatrics
    You, you remind me of me, it's not a compliment
    Get your song on
    You, who you tryin' to be?
    I've got no tolerance left for drama
    You, you would like to go free, jump off the fence let your claws out
    You, you remind me of me, run from all of them 'til they all gone
    Then, here we go again, with my threats to leave
    Like I've ever left a she who wouldn't let me breathe
    Instead I kept it deep enough to get you to believe
    that I'm incapable of escapin' and settin' you free
    Well I'mma open up that map and see the nation
    Call it vocation
    Call it a vacation
    You can find me at the airport waitin'
    or maybe I'll be chain smokin' down at the train station
    With the pose of a mack and my clothes in a sack
    Gotta go and I don't know when I'll be back
    Get my last paycheck, smash and make steps
    Gone, on the run with Kool G. Rap in the tapedeck (peace)
    Thursday, December 1st, 2005
    12:09 pm
    im making my plans for revenge
    ok so long story short i was angrey and shouldn't have posted it on livejournal though i stick with everything i said and except the reprocusions that come from it and all that...so this is whats going to be there instead....i have also realized that i feel to old to have this anymore...so im done writing in it this is my last entry and all that....so bye livejournal you have been good to me...i just have new things to focus on rather than typeing entries cause i never know what to write about then it always turns into this huge ordeal for me...so yeah thats my heartfelt goodbye to my journal...peace out kids

    Current Mood: accomplished
    Tuesday, November 29th, 2005
    1:54 pm
    the gangs all here
    so boston is now a possibility...yay for that i will get the fuck out of here by the end of the summer....that would be amazing...and im going to be incredibly dissapointed if i cant...well thats about it for now....peace

    Current Mood: cheerful
    Friday, November 25th, 2005
    9:02 am
    thanksgiving
    another thanksgiving done and gone...so i have to work the next 3 days then i have 4 days off...it sucks having my manager hate me but oh well...its more time to look for a new job and shit...so yeah...fritz has been so fuckin cute lately and i am extremely excited...so i know 2 people ho got in accident wednesday so that sucked....but i got to see some people who i havent talked to lately....but that is about it....

    Current Mood: content
    Tuesday, November 22nd, 2005
    6:26 pm
    the skyline looked like crooked teeth
    so alyssa is on her way over...and we are going to hopefuly make some clothes or something along those lines...i was supposed to hang out with mike but he was sick and didnt want to drive...i dont blame him cause i wouldnt want to either....well ill have a good night anyways...and im seeing him this weekend before he leaves and shit...but yeah enough about that...i get dinner in july for 7 monthes...how exciting is that..yeah jeremy is supposed to be going to europe and so i inherit a cat...and im inheriting a hamster a bird and perhaps a rat for the month of december...i am also getting a joe...(yeah i know my jokes surprise me too) ok so yeah i need to be done because this is turning out horible....ok im done bye

    Current Mood: calm
    Friday, November 18th, 2005
    8:59 pm
    read me now
    new bouncing souls cd comes out on november 22nd......so yeah everyone should go out and buy it...thanks...
    Thursday, November 17th, 2005
    8:40 pm
    missing someone i hardly know
    so yeah hes leaving and it sucks cause well i like the kid and hes awesome and i dont know it just sucks...but i talked to him about it and he said that he would still call and even if nothing comes out of this except a friendship i could use some more friends...it taught me that there are nice guys out there and i dont deserve to get treated like crap...plus hes beepen gorgous...i spelt that wrong but hey maybe i should say that hes "dreamy"...yeah that will work...so i need to look on the brightside...at least in this situation....well thats all for now...

    Current Mood: all alone
    12:06 pm
    i send my thoughts to far off destinations....
    in case you haven't heard i'm sick and tired of trying....

    the only thing keeping me dry is where i am...i am done listening to last demands...i was a visitor i wasn't permanent....it seems so out of context in this apartment complex....

    Current Mood: freezing
    Sunday, November 13th, 2005
    5:03 pm
    why is it so hard to find someone who gives a shit?
    Thursday, November 10th, 2005
    11:53 am
    this is the sound of settleing
    so yeah there hasnt been a lot happening in the past few days...i got a suit coat..hung out with alyssa...not to much else...well school and work but both of those suck and i dont really see them getting better...so i think that im going to have to find a new job...but oh well thats life and my schedule for next semester is so fucked i have to figure something out for that....

    Sometimes it seems that i don't have the skills to recollect
    The twists and turns of plots that took us from lovers to friends
    I'm thinking i should take that volume back up off the shelf
    And crack it's weary spine and read to help remind myself

    i do believe it’s true
    That there are roads left in both of our shoes
    If the silence takes you
    Then I hope it takes me too
    So brown eyes I hold you near
    Cause you’re the only song I want to hear
    A melody softly soaring through my atmosphere

    Current Mood: lonely
    Monday, November 7th, 2005
    8:09 pm
    smoke the brains from my head
    so nothing much is new with me...alyssa has been coming over a lot which is awesome cause i love hanging out with her....but yeah other than that ive been just chillin by myself which is cool....and doing way to much homework and work is sucking...but hey thats life and i accept that...and i am just trying to be happy and so far its working...and yeah i think im going to harrys army surplus out on telegraph...so that should be a blast...but im on the phone wit steph..so i should finish now...bye

    Current Mood: high
    Friday, November 4th, 2005
    12:05 am
    screw iraq
    i had an amazing night...but i hope everyone else did as well...but despite this i am so frusterated right now and let me tell you it freaking sucks...cause all its doing is ruining the good vibes i had going...but i have to update everyone with some of the worst news i have heard in a long time...so jons going to iraq...im so fucking pissed at this stupid war right now...but yeah i thought i would let the few people who actually know who the hell im talking about know...cause it sucks...so yeah thats all i need to sleep before work...but i think that may take awhile...im so awake

    Current Mood: frustrated
    Wednesday, November 2nd, 2005
    12:46 pm
    hey so i know ive been updating a lot but its because im bored....im in brighton today to hang out with my mom....so that'll be cool...i think shes taking me shopping and im pretty desperite for clothes so yeah...im trying to set up my new phone and failing miserably...but hey whats new....so my life has been kinda weird lately but oh well.....way to much homework and noodles and im so excited to finally have a day off and all that...so everyone should call me and leave a meesage cause well i never get service and wont know that you called otherwise...

    Current Mood: bored
    Tuesday, November 1st, 2005
    7:52 am
    being bored
    yeah so all ive been doing lately is work school and homework...not to much else...for the most part my only contact with people has been either via phone or computer...so now its time to come out and have some social interaction...but i still have so much school homework work and cleaning so i really dont know how thats going to work...so i have decided that everything happens for a reason and that i really should not be so upset that i cant go to boston...one more year in michigan wont be so bad....its be okay...i can get more tattoos this way too...i really need one....i have to see how much my checks going to be to figure out when i can get one....someone needs to come with me and hold my hand...not really but i like having someone to talk to...i finally figured out what im going to get and all that...go me...its going to be awesome and fit with my whole back idea...im going to have to save like a mofo to have enough money to get my entire back done...cause i cant really get it that seperated or itll look stupid if its not all done...you know...im waiting to go to class...well actually i have to go pay rent first but then class....so yeah i hope all is well with everyone...oh and denise..me and you really need to hang out...i dont know when but i think i will call you within the next two days and we will make a plan cause i havent seen you in forever...i really want to see the new house and all that...but yeah i have to go and walk to school so i dont know call me people cause thats the only time i really get to talk to anyone anymore is on the phone...my life is sad...oh well

    Current Mood: spaced out
    Sunday, October 30th, 2005
    8:32 pm
    amazing
    so it started out shaky...got really lost had a small anxiety attack...but it was good once i finally got there...crappy haunted house though...it was so worth the frustration...im so happy

    Current Mood: fuckin amazing
    Thursday, October 27th, 2005
    9:42 am
    i know but its an old song and i heard it so yeah
    i guess we've had our fun but it seems our fun is over now and that's all right it's all right time for me to move along and after all is said and done i'll be all right and it's all
    right tell me something that's sure to break my heart cause everything's my fault and i know i deserve to be alone cause everything's my fault here we go again unsuccessful
    to make amends but that's all right and it's all right i've tried as hard as i can but i can't can't seem to understand oh it's all right and it's all right tell me something that's sure to
    break my heart cause everything's my fault and i know i deserve to be alone cause everything's my fault i guess it's over now your honesty has all run out but that's all right
    and it's all right i just can't seem to see how the hell you can make believe that it's all right and it's all right tell me something that's sure to break my heart cause everything's
    my fault and i know i deserve to be alone cause everything's my fault and everything's my fault and everything's my fault and everything's my fault and everything's my fault

    Current Mood: lonely
[ << Previous 20 ]
About LiveJournal.com